Saltine Crackers

Food has been a big challenge so far. I've never considered myself a picky eater (besides my dislike of most fish), but I have definitely become one. It depends on the day and time, but most of the time lately, nothing sounds good at all. My meals mostly consist of saltine crackers and cheese, ginger ale, granola bars, and water. Meat sounds especially gross most days and so do most meals that are really rich and hearty, like one of my favorite foods- lasagna. 

After seeing my regular doctor, she recommended taking a B6 vitamin in the morning and a Unisom sleep tablet at night. I've been taking those regularly for the past two weeks. I haven't noticed a huge improvement, but I'm afraid to stop taking them because I don't want it to get worse. I'm going to mention some of my symptoms to my OB doctor this week and see what she says. 

I usually cook every night, so I know it has been challenging for Elliott to go without meals some nights. We also eat dinner together at the kitchen table and there have been several nights where I have sat down to eat with him and had to leave the table because the food becomes repulsive. It makes me sad to miss out on this little routine with him, but I am hopeful that it won't be for long. 

Besides the food aversions, I have been pretty tired. I am usually a go-go-go person, so it's hard for me to sit around and do nothing....especially when there's lots to be done. I've had to leave some of the chores up to Elliott and let some go completely (like laundry...uggh!). I take a lot more naps on the weekends and my evenings have been cut down by several hours. My normal bedtime is around 9pm...sometimes even earlier. Elliott doesn't mind the early bedtime on the weeknights, since he has to get up really early for work anyways. However, last Saturday night we were in bed by 8:45pm and I know he was pretty disappointed. I told him to go do something fun, so he went to the driving range for a while and then came back to find a half-asleep, grumpy wife...which leads me to my next symptom...


Grumpiness. The food issues, mixed with the nausea, combined with the tiredness and frustration of not being able to get everything done has left me pretty grumpy most days. I'm not comfortable, I feel fat (and my clothes are tight), and most of all, I can't do what I want to do. The weather is so nice and I want to go to the gym, take walks with my dog, enjoy our patio, drink beer with our friends, go to the driving range, etc....and I just don't have the energy. I know it will all be worth it in the end, but right now it just feels uncomfortable and frustrating. That's where the grumpiness is coming from...

I'm hoping in the next month or so, these discomforts will be a distant memory. I'm ready to get to the fun stuff! I know there will be other discomforts to look forward to, but at least I will be able to eat pickles and ice cream until my heart's content. :-) 

Love always, 


Erin